Camp and the day after....

Craving : Chocolate chip cookies

When I first started writing this entry, I had thought to write it in chronological order. Starting with the camp and all it happenings. Yet I am drawn away from that. I just found out about an hour or so ago, that something I said affected somebody more then I thought, and I just feel so stupid and sorry. I feel bad, I want so badly to go to the person and say I'm sorry, but I know the person doesn't want the issue to be talked about anymore. So here I am blogging about it and it hits me that I really am a very selfish person. Do I want to say sorry so the other person will feel better? Or do I want to do that so I can feel better. As I write, the desire to bring up the issue and say sorry is just so tempting, but what would that actually accomplish? Me feeling better, and the person I say sorry to feeling terrible, because I brought up an issue they don't want to talk about anymore. I guess I just answered my own questions haven't I.

Ok now that, that's off my chest, I can move on to camp. Camp was excellent. The fellowship was great. The hot springs were great and I would love to go back there a second time. The most important thing however was the talks by our camp speaker. I will have to be honest I ussually can't pay full attention to most talks on Sunday morning but with this speaker, even though almost every talk exceeded an hour, I didn't feel sleepy one bit and gave my full attention. Each talk really spoke to me, and sometimes I even felt that God was speaking directly to me through the speaker. I made some decisions to change certain things in my life at camp and I truly pray that God willing I will be able to stick to those changes.

Now what camp would be complete for me if there wasn't some sort of personal struggle for me to go through. My struggle was an internal one, and I hope no one else saw it but me, because I struggled with the green eyed monster, for the strangest of reasons. I won't mention details here to protect the innocent, but for awhile at camp, it was begining to affect me. Finally I sat down and prayed, and as I spoke with Father in heaven, I could just feel the monster been lifted from me. I am just so thankful that I can speak to Him this way and commit all of it to prayer. Things are peachy with me once more, and I actually think I have come out stronger from that struggle. But yes the camp was great and kudos to all those involved in making it happen!

On a side note, my parents came back from their holiday in China on sunday. It is great to have them back again and they seemed to have brought back all sorts of interesting goodies. I must sample them and will hopefully be giving a full report soon.