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A sort of revelation hit me the other day. Well it didn't actually hit me. It was more like it had been knocking at the door of my brain for so long, but I just was ignoring it. As some of you know, I've been having this on and off infatuation kind of thing going for about 3 years and maybe a little bit more now. I've talked of letting go a few times before I think, but I've always harboured a little hope that maybe someday....*sigh* That just sucks, trust me I know.
Then at the turn of the new year a friend asked me a simple question. "So masih ada feeling ke?" I being the evasive one, just brushed it of and did the standard "Don't know", shrug shoulders kind of answer. Thing is this, when I actually thought about it over the next couple of weeks I came to a realization and was able to admit to myself that really there wasn't any feelings there anymore. I was just clinging on to hope for the sake of hope. You know that clinging on just because if I let go then there was nothing for me to hope for anymore, because "I'd be more alone then I am now". Thank God, He sent my friend those simple words to wake me up.
That truly allowed me, to for the first time in a long time, take that step forward. So to that friend, I hope you know who you are...Thank you.
PS: I got lazy of labels. So not including them anymore.
A sort of revelation hit me the other day. Well it didn't actually hit me. It was more like it had been knocking at the door of my brain for so long, but I just was ignoring it. As some of you know, I've been having this on and off infatuation kind of thing going for about 3 years and maybe a little bit more now. I've talked of letting go a few times before I think, but I've always harboured a little hope that maybe someday....*sigh* That just sucks, trust me I know.
Then at the turn of the new year a friend asked me a simple question. "So masih ada feeling ke?" I being the evasive one, just brushed it of and did the standard "Don't know", shrug shoulders kind of answer. Thing is this, when I actually thought about it over the next couple of weeks I came to a realization and was able to admit to myself that really there wasn't any feelings there anymore. I was just clinging on to hope for the sake of hope. You know that clinging on just because if I let go then there was nothing for me to hope for anymore, because "I'd be more alone then I am now". Thank God, He sent my friend those simple words to wake me up.
That truly allowed me, to for the first time in a long time, take that step forward. So to that friend, I hope you know who you are...Thank you.
PS: I got lazy of labels. So not including them anymore.
posted by Su | 3:33 pm
2 Comments:
Su.
it's great that you've finally gotten over your infatuation for me.
*insert awkward silence*
it was hard eh?
I'm such a lovable person. :D
*nampak Su glaring at me with i'm-gonna-kill-you eyes*
i'm sorrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!
lol.
kkkkk, seriously.. glad that you're able to move on now..yay for Su!
kthnxbyehugs! ;)
Di.
Yes, you've discovered by big secret, namely my infatuation for you
*insert awkward silence*
It was hard, but friends finally made me realized that I was settling for less with you when I actually deserved someone better.
I'm just too loving a person. :D
*nampak Di glaring at me with i'm-gonna-kill-you eyes*
I'm sooorrrry too! :P
Kekekeke...Seriously though, thanks lots for those words of encouragement. Means lots to me. Call me one day and we go yum cha ok? :)
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