Fighting Fire, Spreading Thin

Craving : Burchetta Ham wrapped sausages

Phew! It has been a tiring yet fulfilling weekend. Just had the 4th Anual Orang Asli youth camp in church over the weekend and I am dead tired. If I thought I could get away with another day of leave, I'd be sleeping like a log at home. The OA youth were definately of a different bunch this time around. I wasn't around the camp last year, but compared to two years back, this group was a lot more out spoken and weren't as shy as those previously. It was good spending time with the OA youth, although in the end I didn't spend as much time with them as I would have liked. I also feel that as a whole the helpers this year seemed to spend less time with the youth then we did in the previous camp I was involved in. This was pretty apparent at meal times when not many of the helpers actually sat with the OA youth. I think the camp committee was really discouraged by this and actually kept reminding us to spend time with our youth. In the end though, I'm happy that I seemed to have been able to get to know some of those youth better, and that even after 2 years some of the guys still remember me :). Lots of them were non-christians this year, and I hope that some how even with the limited time we had, God was able to work through us and helped them along the road to becoming part of His family.

Now, on to other things. Recently I been feeling tired. Not only physically, but emotionally as well. I often feel that there is just so much to be done and that I really seem to have no time to myself. So to remedy this I'll actually be taking a leave of absence from some activities this year, namely VBS and Teenstreet. YF camp (and maybe choir if they'll take me :P) will be enought for this year end :). Physical drain though can easily be remedied with a good rest.

More then the physical drain though, is the emotional one. I feel like I'm constantly fighting fire within the ministries I'm involved in. Some more then others. Maybe because I have this ideal of everyone being happy and pulling in the same direction, especially when they're working in the same committees. I see good, committed, mature and steadfast Christians getting discouraged with one another or just getting disillusioned and I try to work on the sidelines sometimes to smooth things over. It really hurts me when I see the state in which certain things have drawn to, and sometimes I don't even know what to do. All I can do is continue to pray, that God will work things out. That he will grant the wisdom to someone, may it be me or someone else to help work all these things out. That I'll have the emotional strength to keep at caring and being optimistic....and most of all to just keep walking the walk even during the times I really really don't feel like it.