A new month

Craving : Sang Ha Min (Fresh Prawn Mee)

Breathe in! Do you smell that? No? Well it's the air of a new month. So much for the fresh new intro, I tried to make it more hip, but I guess that just isn't my forte. So haven't blogged in about a week I guess. Been really lazy and DotAing. Echoing the words of a fellow blogger of mine, Jee Lee it is a lot more quite now without the Li Yee, Sam, Shel and Topher around, and so soon after Kev and KFCKFC left too. Amazing how time flies and how relationships can change during that time. This thought is occuring to me now even as I write this because I am reminded that barely a year and a half or so ago Li Yee and Shelby were nothing more then another two faces in the crowd. I had heard of the "Shall-be" song, but that was my extent of knowledge of those two. Fast forward to the present and its a whole different story. Speaking of that, I can't believe it has been one and half years since.....oh but that's for another time.

Other things on my mind. Well actually the one major thing on my mind now it that I'm giving a message this weekend to the youth. I am nervous, really nervous. I haven't had much to go on, but I think I have found a tangent to talk about. Thank God. But I really need to spend alot more time with God and focus. The last thing I want to do is to lead young lives astray. That is one of my biggest fears, that I go out there and say something that is grossly wrong. I admit the embarassment would play a big part, but I know in my heart (or at least I hope I do) that it will be God I'm serving when I go up front there and not myself. I am frightened, frightened I am ashamed to say of what people will think after I'm done, when instead I should be frigtened of God. I know I need to get my heart right with God before I speak, or it will all come to naught. Which is precisely the reason I'm taking leave from work tomorrow, to go away and really focus on Him.