Thoughts to ponder

Craving: Lok-lok

Hmmmm...once again my thoughts have been side tracked..I thought I would come on and post a nice litte blog entry without much thought..you know..some light stuff. But once again..the big guy in the sky has thwarted my plans and He has said to me..."Hey! Guess what? I have something for you to think about." Even writing about it on my blog is going to be a challenge....since giving any details would give it away. All I can say is that God has shown me truly that His ways are not always our ways. We can have the best well laid plans, and be working hard at it...but if it is not in accordance to Him and what He has laid out, it will not come to be. I have to say I was pretty shocked when I heard this piece of news. It was one of those sure things that just didn't come to be. For awhile all I could ask was "Why?" until slowly through His spirit He helped me to undersand that maybe this was the way He wanted it to be.

Why oh why...Part deux

Ok so I've had sometime to think after that last post. It's only a few hours later but I felt I needed to add to that post. I read through my post again and I think I see things clearer now then I did when I wrote that. Counseling and listening. Two parts of my life I take so much pride in. And the fact of the matter is I shouldn't. I have been blessed with these gifts (well at least I think they arr..not sure..no one has ever told me what my gifts are...but I'm getting side tracked) and I'm only God's steward for them. He gave and he can take away. I guess that I'm just unsure of myself sometimes. But God truly is good to me. I was struggling with another issue today, and I could see that it could have been a trap for me to fall into , but God intervened and somehow he removed the hurdle. I guess my thoughts really aren't as organized as I thought. Just so many things running through my head this night..

Ok I know this is out of context but oh well....

Happy Birthday Zen Sern!

Why oh why....

Craving: Quiche

You know, I had a blog all planned out before today. An entry I was going to post up. I was going to talk about my weekend again, and what I baked on thursday and of COPA IBA. Actually I wasn't even planning to blog until tomorrow, but then I got a phone call. It was a friendly call and was a really fun chat, as talking with this friend usually is (well most of the time she talks and I just listen..:P). Something my friend however, really got to me. It got me thinking about how sensitive I am to outside criticism, especially those from my close friends. No, actually that is wrong. I'm not so much sensitive to criticism as I am of what they think of me. I really don't know how to explain it.......maybe because I pride myself on my listening and couseling so much...and yet sometimes I just wish that sometimes the roles could be reversed. I know I could tell God, and pray to Him, and that is something I do. But really, sometimes one just needs to have the ear of another person to talk to. You know what? I just don't know what has gotten into me....must be one of those moods....I have written and rewritten this passage many times, sometimes bearing my soul and then just covering it back up again. *sigh* I really wonder what has gotten me into this mood.

The wind carries cries,
The wind carries tears,
The wind carries laughter,
All to my ears.

Listen always I do,
Listen always I try,
Listen always I am,
Though none hear my sigh.

Stretch Weekend

Weekend Funny Moment : Trying to spray someone with a can of frozen whipped cream
Craving : Freshly baked bread

Have you ever felt like the weekends have been stretched? Well this past weekend just felt like that. In fact last night at dinner I got a call from my mum asking me why I had been out the whole day without coming back. I can't say I blame her. I have been neglecting spending time with family abit...ok alot. Need to change that....now back to the topic at hand..yes it has been one of those weekends where there just seems so much to do.

Saturday started of pretty well with waking up at about 9 and just lounging around for most of the morning. Finally did my chore of mopping the house, which I had been neglecting like forever. I think my parents must have thought they should have bought a lottery ticket when I did that :D. After that, lunch.

Finally a chance to cook! As you can tell by this blog, I love cooking and baking. One of my favourite past times. Unfortunately, I rarely have the time to cook and bake. This past saturday however I had the chance to cook however. Nothing fancy, just cooking up some fried-baked rice using some leftovers. May not be much, but just chopping garlic and onions, cooking everything over the stove, spicing it all up, was enough to bring a smile to my face. Seriously, preparation of the food is more then half the fun for me. Especially when I have to improvise and come up with new recipies and ideas. It is really fun experimenting and even better when it all turns out. Didn't hurt that the rice turned out pretty ok too! Hehehe..can't wait for this thursday, when I get even more free time to cook! And now that I have Shalom's cooking books there's so much to try out. Yay!

YF was quite fun and interesting this week as we had a forum on relationships with parents. Nothing quite as fun as having your friend's parents up on stage to answer questions. You get to hear all sorts of interesting things about your friends. For example, how one sister is trifty while the other is spend trift or what age is it acceptable to date. However the award has to go to Mr.Y in his reponse to "how much pocket money should a child get"! hahahaha..I'm smiling and laughing now just thinking about it. On another note, the forum also made me alittle sad, because at the moment my parents won't ever appear on the stage in church for this kind of thing. Actually it is more of my dad I'm worried about, 'coz my mum is already a Christian. My dad however isn't and recently God has put it on my heart that this something that I really need to pray about and do something about. Somehow I just have the feeling that my dad is the kind of person that will take alot effort and prayer before he accepts Christ into his life, but once he has I just have this feeling that he will be a really strong Christian. I just really don't know how to reach him....so those of you out there, pray for us yeah?

Once again back to the weekend recap. After YF was dinner at Paris, for some of the staff who were involved with discipleship groups. It was actually quite nice to sit down and chat with one another over other matters besides the youth and just share a laugh or two. The food was good and the fellowship even more so. The training that followed was kept informal, yet was informative. We have been postoning it for sometime now, and hopefully now we will keep things moving along. After that I rushed off to sunway to meet up with some ol' uni mates lots of fun reminiscing too. So I guess Saturday was a long day of fun and fellowship which I really didn't mind.

Sunday however was a long day. And I think I had a minor spiritual battle that day, and by the grace of God I think I came up on top. The thing was I was feeling really lethargic that day. It was the kind of day when I wanted to do things for myself instead of for other people. So I got invited to a movie! Great! I was all set for a relaxing day of me time. But then transportation needs for the Copa IBA practice came in and the only other person I could count on for transport was watching the movie too. So I just knew it wasn't fair to ask him to get them. I struggled I tell you, I almost wanted to say "Forget it! you all find your own way!", but by the grace of God I didn't. Instead I decided to not to go for the movie and do the pick up run. Then to my surprise the movie was canceled and we all went to do something else that allowed me the time to do the transport run. I still was struggling though..and I was telling myself how thankless it was and all that....but that all changed as soon as I picked up my charges. God really showed me how wrong I was. I am so happy that I didn't just give up like that and actually made that decision to do the transport, because it isn't a thankless job. Making those youths happy is really all the thanks one could ask for.

I'm not alone

I run a lifelong race
The only one to me that God has shown
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I'm not alone

I walk this empty beach
Only one pair of footprints do I see
'Coz He carries me
And I'm more than one and I'm not alone

I'm not alone
I'm not alone

I'm not alone
I'm not a...

My Saviour's the only one that walks beside me
At calvary he died for one such as me
He left the flock to go out there and find me
So now I'm not alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm running to the line
And though I fall I do not ever cry
Coz' He's there beside
Picks me up and so I'm not alone

Read between the lines
God loves me and everything's alright
Can't you see the signs
To know He loves you too and I'm not alone

I'm not alone
I'm not alone

I'm not alone
I'm not a...

My Saviour's the only one that walks beside me
At calvary he died for one such as me
He left the flock to go out there and find me
So now I'm not alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm not alone
I'm not a...

I walk this empty beach
Only one pair of footprints do I see
'Coz He carries me
And I'm more than one and I'm not alone

My Saviour's the only one that walks beside me
At calvary he died for one such as me
He left the flock to go out there and find me
So now I'm not alone

I'm sooooooo sleeeeeeepy

Joke of the Day : "What do you call a dear with no eyes, no legs and chewing on a razor blade?" Answer : Still no bloody idea. (This curtesy of ckc)
Craving : Caviar!

Yes, yes. I'm taking a quick break from work to let my mind rest. You need to do that once in awhile you know. Important to relax a little. So i'm back in the blogging mood. Or at least I hope so. But first I need to wish a few people happy birthday ... yes that's right a few people whose birthday's just passed and those who will be coming up soon. With my irregular blogging schedule, I don't know if I'll be able to wish them on my blog that day, so might as well lump it all together.

Happy Birthday Weng Yan!
Happy Birthday Jee Leng!
Happy Birthday Justin!
Happy Birthday Jessica!

Now that's done. Past week has really been an amazing week for me. I was so worried about work that I wouldn't be able to meet my datelines. I was really at a lost, didn't know what I could do. So I turned to God and asked Him for help. I wasn't expecting Him to do anything 'coz like so many other times it was a last minute thing. And once again , only when I gave up everything and relied on Him did things work out. So Thank you God!

I also worship led for Youth Fellowship this week. As I was preparing for that, God brought to my mind something that I thought about a few weeks back. Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Greenday. In that song one of the most prominent lines goes "I walk alone" and that really got me thinking. The reason being it is so true. So many people in this world about their everyday lives and feel so alone. So many feel that the only person who understands them are themselves, and so they keep things to themselves. The truth is though...we are not alone. There is someone up there that realises and understands how we feel, sometimes even better then we know ourselves. He is the Lord Jesus Christ. Amen to that!

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Daily Joke: "What do you call a dear with no legs and no eyes?" Answer: Still no idea
Craving: Pancakes!

Once again I return from the blogging break that I take every so often. I just haven't had the mood to blog these past few days I guess. Even now I don't really feel in the blogging mood. There are so many things I could write about, my new glasses, captain ball practice, the illness that plagues a friend's father, BSF today, etc. Unfortunately none of those really calls to me to blog them. And I don't want to blog on my friend's father, because it really is a private thing I feel and I wouldn't want to talk about them here so freely. So what am I left with? Just ranting on and on I guess...not much else really that I can do. I had originally planned to compose some poem to put up here. But just could not get the inspiration or the mood. Guess must be one of those times huh? Well at least I'll leave you with some pictures of my trip to PD.