Jump! Jump! Jump!

Joke of the Day : "What do you call a dear with no eyes? Answer: No idea"
Craving : Sphagetti with Meatballs

So I'm really tired after last nights concert. I went to see the simple plan concert with a few friends and if was pretty fun. Did lots of jumping, knocked out my knees, shouted my voice away and drained the energy out of me. I tell you those are the signs of being old. Ofcourse the real clincher here is going to a concert where 90% of those attending are younger then you, and the 10% that are older then you are seated in the bleachers. Still it was a pretty fun concert.

But I have been thinking about somethings I did at the concert last night and though I was pretty smug with myself last night, I seem to have a different view of it today. There was alot of pushing in the crowd as per the normal concert atmosphere and even more then that. It was so bad, we barely had space to breathe, so I and some friends decided to be the "Wall" and not let anyone pass through. I actually did that pretty well and though the crowd moved continuously, we did not. Now there was this group of westerners next to me, with these thre girls who kept trying to push through the front. Not only were they loud, but they were irriataing as well. I tell you if you think Malaysian s are bad, well these Americans/Europeans were worse.

Well they tried to get past me and I wouldn't let them, in fact they tried many times and all sorts of stunts, but I just wouldn't let them pass and just ignored them as if nothing was going on. They would push me and I would just push back. They finally got past me though and took the long way around, avoiding me and going around the side ot end up infront of me. Their guy friends weren't any better either and a lot of the night before it all started involved "battles" of sorts between me and the group. I would have to say I made it really hard for them most of the night and was pretty glad with my self for making the stand.

On hindsight however I, just think about what kind of testimony that must have given to those around me. I mean if they had known I was a Christian what would they have thought. They must have thought Christians are just the same in conduct, maybe even worse. It really got me thinking on what Christ would have done in the same situation, would He have acted like me? The answer is no. He would have probably been alot more accomodating and done things in the spirit of love rather then in anger. I just wish I had thought of this sooner.

No bunnies, no eggs, just Easter.

Joke of the Day : "Last time I went on holiday, i flew with BA. It was terrible. He kept shouting "You crazy fool! I ain't getting on no plane!"
Craving : Meatballs!

Easter weekend is over and well now it is Tuesday. What a weekend it has been. Saturday was a spending spree on my part, making a new pair of glasses and going to PC fair. I tell you temptation is great when you are surrounded by really cheap stuff. Perhaps next year I'll save up and build my comp from PC fair parts. :P

Next was Easter Sunday. It did not start off too well for me, because I actually found one of the sharings during worship overly long and distracting. Other than that it was pretty good, I wanted to share a song when someone else did that, which hopefully means I was on the right page. The speaker was good and I gained from his talk. It was interesting and kept me captivated, unlike some of the speakers that my church has on sunday morning.

However, not everything was peachy that day. I came to realize how self-concious I can be around certain people. Because of previous happenings and feelings, I now am very careful around these people, mainly because I'm so afraid that my actions which will be wrongly interpreted. This may be things that would be normal for me to say or do with any friend but because of all the perceptions surrounding it, I'm afraid these people interpret it wrongly or that the people around see the wrong thing. And this really bugs me. Because I have no idea how to get around this besides avoidance which I reallly don't want to do. *sigh* irritating...I am begining to think that "out sourcing" is really the best option.

A trip to Port Dickson

Craving : Soup crackers, the kind you can't get in Malaysia

Went on a trip today with a few friends. Got up at 7am or so, got ready and then went out to pick up KP and YS. Headed over to FS 's house where we were kept on the couch by Cookie the dog. FS droveus all down to Port Dickson where we had quite a fun time hiking up to a lighthouse (which had be converted into a radar of sorts). Went to a beach, drank coconut juice, ate ice cream flew a kite and chatted alot. I have pictures but they are not ready to be posted yet, so just keep a look out yeah? Can't write for long today, my comp's acting up and I don't know when it is going to shut down. So I better end here and post. Will write more next time round.

Finding an old friend

Daily Quote : "Power corrupts! ...But abosolute power is really neat!" -Unkown-
Craving: Chocolate Cake

Wow. I just had one of those "I can't believe it!" kinda experiences. One of my biggest gripes is I never really kept touch with any of my friends from ISU, not even the Malaysian ones. Ohh...I can just see those fellas reading my blog and going "Yeah what! Call you out also always not free!". The fact is though is that at least I have their contacts and emails. The American, Spanish, etc. friends of mine however I have no contact what so ever. Somehow I got it in to my head a couple days back to try and track down some of my old RPG buddies from ISU. Sent out a few emails to possible email adds garnered of the ISU website and got one reply with a no. So as you can tell things were looking pretty bleak. Anyway I logged on to the mush from work and lounged abit. Coding and chatting with the people there when lo and behold I spied a familiar name. A couple of questions and I reestablished connections with an old friend! A few minutes later and i've got emails! Ahh this just feels great. And here I thought I was just going to log on and post that I was lazy.

Oh ye of bad judgement!!

Daily Quotes : "Why are goods transported by ship called cargo and goods transported by car called shipment?"
Craving : A Smoothie

Well, well, well. I can tell you my judgement can really suck at times. I try and make a situation better and end up making things worse instead. Tonight itself I have already made two mistakes that I regret....*sigh*....I don't know, maybe I'm just not thinking straight. Publicly showing my displeasure at something was a mistake, because it wasn't really that big of a thing and I am a little afraid that the message getting passed about will be distorted and just cause more problemes. However even worse is involving a friend in the whole thing who didn't want to be mentioned. Putting this up on my blog may not even be the best idea, but I don't know. I guess I need an outlet to gripe and this is the spot. Just want to say sorry though, you know who I am directing this too.

Insecurity...

Daily Quotes : "Nothing you can do, can make Him love you more. And nothing that you have done can make Him close the door." - "So You Would Come" (Hillsongs) -
Craving : Homemade baked macaroni

Something just started to bug me about 30 minutes ago, and that's how insecure I am sometimes. I have come to realise that I can sometimes be really paranoid. I tend to read to much into things and easily begin to feel insecure and question things when I think people are hiding things for me or something similar. This only happens when dealing with my close friends and it can really eat me up inside sometimes. It's not something new but, it this is the first time I'm writing about it. The problem is that most of the time there is nothing there at all, but I will get caught up in the thoughts of "do they trust me?", "do they think I'm bad", etc. Thank God nothing too adverse has come of this yet and that I have been able to get a hold of myself before things spiral out of control. I guess part of the problem is that I take a little pride in that I believe that I am many times able to predict a relationship happening before it actually does. Problem is this prediction thing spills into my other parts of life,and I sometimes become over sensetive. Maybe this realization and confronting of the problem is God's way of telling me "Hey! Get over it! Don't be paranoid!".

Lunch at the Palace

Daily Quote : "The main reason Santa is so jolly is because he knows where all the bad girls live" -George Carlin
Cravings : Fresh Rock Oysters!!!

Oh man! Am I full to the brim! Today my company had out "Company Lunch 2004", which because of various reasons had been postponed to 2005. WE had it at the Palace of the Golden Horses. The food was pretty alright, but the variety was abit limited. A plus point were the fresh oysters, unfortunately once we (and in we I mean my colleagues and I) finished the first batch of oysters they refused to replenish them. Instead they just replaced it with chilled crabs! Not satisfactory service if you ask me! But other then that the food was pretty good. My colleague Andy definately thought so. The Michael Wongs and Adrene Wongs can step aside, Andy Chee is the king of buffet. I seriously think he ate at least 3-4 times the food I took! When the food had beaten everyone else in to submission...Andy was still going strong!

On to other things. I have stolen jessica's tag board idea. (Hehehe....thanks yeah jess? You don't mind right?) So you all can start tagging me. I've also added that tiny picture of a herb on my wishlist to spice it up. Well that's that, and I'm signing off! Tata.

A Day to Friday...

Daily Quote : None
Craving : Waffles and ice cream *shakes fist at jessica*

Made a couple of additions to my blog today. I added links to all my blogging friends in my sidebar *points right and down*. So now all you avid blog readers can go read the lives of those I hang out with. I also added my kitchen wishlist. Yay! Decided that my blog needed more kitchen based stuff to make it true to its name. So now you can all see what I am planning to get for my kitchen next.

On other things. I've gotten back into MUSHing again. For those of you who don't know, it's sort of a text-based roleplaying enviroment, where roleplaying more then combat is emphazied. It really gets the creative juices flowling and since there is limited roleplaying opportunities in Malaysia, this is where I turn to. If you want to know more go visit www.ennersea.net, the website of the MUSH I'm currently on.

Oh and here's some pictures from Danga Bay, Johor!

"Give me sight beyond sight!"

Daily Quote : "I'm blind not deaf!" -Illidan, Demonhunter-
Craving : A nice juicy steak

Ok so I've been down and out with an eye infection and scratched cornea for over a week. You know one never really appreciates what they have until they have it taken away. I really hope I don't take my sight for granted again, because having it taken away for about a week really showed me how important it is. I never realised that so much of the things I do rely on my sight. For those days when I could not even bear to keep my good eye open for a few minutes because of the pain, I laid in bed and could not think of a single thing to do that didn't require my sight. Thank God I'm well on the way back to recovery.

Also much appreciated are those who prayed for me, to send me well wishes, and who came to visit me. I may not have said it, but I really appreciate it! Thanks for the carrot juice (it was delicious!) and thanks for 'the carrot' as well!

Strange thing was I was trying to post last week, in one of my better eye moments, and was feeling a little down. I admit it was a time of great weakness and boredom and self pity all caught up with me, something I expected but had hoped for the opposite happend. I was going to post about it, when for some reason I couldn't blog. And shortly after that to my great surprise, I was actually proven wrong and that really made my day! Just goes to show that God is always watching, and He knows your needs. One just has to learn and truly rely on Him!

A Quickie!

Daily Quote : None.
Craving : Red Snapper Fish and Chips

Now then, this blog is truly turing into a one week afair more then the weekly one it is turning out to be. I need to really find away to start blogging at home. Perhaps it is time for me to reinstall that IE of mine. But enough about htat for now. I've had quite a bit to reflect on over the past week. Eventhough I have been pretty busy, I have been really struggling with the being lonely crap. I guess it's just that time of the year for me. Hopefully it will pass. On another note, I was given a nice surprise by one of my student's mum the other day. She gave me an ang pow and thanked me for going to pick her children up for YF. I can tell you I was so taken aback, this was truly soemthing I never expected. It feels good to know that even in this sometimes thankless area of service our efforts are appreciated..:) Thank you Jesus for that little bit of encouragement..:)

This is a really quick entry because I just really want to head home but I also want to blog before I leave for Johor tomorrow. Yup I'll be out of state till friday night, so to all of you out there...Don't miss me too much..:)