Thoughts a Tempting

Craving : Fish Fingers....lots of them!

Another week has passed and it really has given me lots to think about. I think I've been getting emotionally drained lately. Possibly a combination of alot of work, and just having so much to do. It also seems I keep running into these obstacles, that just take the wind out of me. At work it's things like me finishing a project only to have new requirements come in and without any extentions on the datelines. Even in church I sometimes come up against it. I had my heart set on VBS and doing the games and such, but just yesterday I was asked to go for this Alpha youth thing. Which causes me problems with my leave. So I have to give one up, and I know VBS has to go cause the Alpha Youth training is really more important. The thing is I wish the people in charge could have told us earlier about this. Then I would have had my heart so set on VBS. Sigh.

So it's things like this that drain me. The ironic thing about me is I really don't have anyone to turn to. There is just no one I can go to and just sit down and share my problems with. Sure I share with a couple of people here and there, but no one really knows the full story. I mean, who is there I can just go to for a hug and just sigh about the VBS and Alpha youth delima? Oh well...maybe it's just me being in one of those moods again.

On the brightside, been having some good food fellowship lately. Had a great time at Peng Chui's birthday party, all I do believe most of us made fools of ourselves on the karaoke machine. Perhaps the drinks were spiked??!?! Next day had lunch with Heidi and Shalom, with a little cameo act by Martin and Sarah. Was good chatting with them, and even though I once again did not manage to join them for a movie, I thought we had a pretty good time. I'm sure we'll make the movies one day or the other..:P

Oh and last but not least a very happy birthday to Miss Serena Sit Pei Shan, who turns a year older today! Yay!

Baby Steps

Cravings : Turkey Stuffing and Gravy

It's been awhile since I've been able to feel uplifted by my walk with God. Most of the time when I blog about it or think about it, it's been about struggles and trying to be consistent and trying to spend time with Him. I'll have to be honest and it's been a real struggle over the past couple of years, and there has been lots on my mind, but for the first time since I was in the states, I've been having constant quiet time and prayer. It's been going on for a few weeks now too! Little by little I've been seeing how this affecting my life daily as well. The feeling is also truly amazing, I really don't know how to explain it, even prayer is a different experience. Maybe this is how Jacob felt after he wrestled with God and was renewed.

Been thinking about the church and YF alot recently. Even had a chat about it with grace the other day. Church and the YF as a reflection of that is pretty luke warm. There are people who are serving and who are on fire for God, the overview is just lukewarm, if not worse. Been wondering why this is so, and I think it's because there really is no unity in the church, not in the sense of conflicts and such, but that we are not all pulling together for one cause. Every sunday morning we sit in the hall and all we have to do is to look up and see the church vision "Unto the glory of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ and unto the furthurance of the Gospel". And that should be what the whole church should be striving towards! Unfortunately many people don't want to take up the cross, they don't want to walk the road let alone go the extra mile. Everyone is just too comfortable. Life is just too comfortable and Satan is holding many in his "plushy grip of death". Ok so maybe that's just being dramatic. I look at other churches and I wonder sometimes, why is that church growing, why are their people so vibrant, why are their youth so dynamic? Why? Why? One day I pray that our church will be like that too. All of you out there, pray along with me yeah? And ask God to do a good work in it. Let's not forget our first love.

On another note, my leave for VBS and Teenstreet '07 Malaysia has been approved! Yay! Looks like I'll be able to be involved in all of that after all. Have to say was a little apprehensive about asking for the leave because I wasn't confirmed yet and it was for quite a few days, but thank God there was no hassle in getting it at all. Next on the plate...planning for all those little tykes at VBS : Arctic Edge (No. There is no sumo this year.)

P/S : Chelsea 1 - 0 Barcelona .... WooHoo!
P/S : Sorry If I offended anyone with this post, it's just something that I felt had to be said.

Sleep + Monetary Deprived

Cravings: Roasted Turkey and Stuffing

Phew! What a weekend! It was all a blur to me. Not to mention a really tiring one too, but God got me through it all somehow. Started out with a friday night birthday dinner for Liz and Rach. Went to Teluk Gong for seafood (Again). So my cholestrol gonna shoot through the roof, but it was fun and there we had a pretty interesting talk about crab and eel hunting. Probably a conversation that should not be repeated any time soon....those who were there, you know what I mean. Hehehe...dinner wasn't the end of it all though...all of us the headed over to Charles' place for our very first Time Spiral draft, and this was at 2300 hours ++. Had a blast eventhough I lost, and I can't wait for the next one! Since we started so late however we only ended at about 4:30am after which I promptly drove home and slept only to wake up at 9:30 - 10am.

Thus starts the second day. Got up, cooked some breakfast, then got started on finishing up the talk I was going to give later that evening to the YF. God really spoke to me at during this time and I took much shorter then I expected. I by His grace managed to arrange all my thoughts in that sleep depraved mind of mine and was able to firm up the structure and the points. Took an hour and a half or so to get it done and then settled down for some anime watching. At which point I got a phone call from a person in need. So I dusted off my armor, took a couple of minutes to buff it up and give it a little shine, then headed of to rescue the damsel in distress.

Returned home an hour later and swapped cars with my dad so my car aircond could get fixed, then took an hour nap after which I headed to YF. Got there and prayed. Even during most of the worship session I was outside praying. I was that nervous. I'm not much of a public speaker. I get really nervous in front of crowds, even when I'm worship leading. So you can imagine teaching God's word is even worse. God really gave me strength to do it though. I just cannot believe how I got through it all. Even though there were somethings that didn't go as planned but I'm glad that the discussions seemed to go well and that God seemed to speak to the youth. :) So thank God for that.

Oh man...there is just so much more to write and I haven't even finished saturday yet!!! Crazy...well I'm getting lazy and so I'll just give you the gist of it all. Slept at 4am for the past 3nights. So am very tired. Car air-cond repair cost RM1000++ so I'm poor. :( On the brightside had a pleasant surprise on sunday. Jen May was back! Yay..and she brought Hersey's Special Dark Chocolate and 3 Musketeers too!! Ahh,....brings back memories of my lab days. Well it's been a darn tiring weekend..but I'm happy. Was able to have little chats with different people that I don't spend all that much time with like Heidi and Yueen Mun (and YM and I finally had that friday lunch). So all in all it was a great weekend which left me sleep and monetary deprived..:P Thank goodness tomorrow is a holiday!