Fellowship

Cravings : Gyros

It's like 12:50 am in the morning, and I'm wide awake. I just got back home from a yum cha session and am as we speak copying stuff from my friend's hard drive to mine. So I thought I'd take this opportunity to blog. Have had quite a few interesting chats this week and have done some sharing as well as listened to other's share. I truly feel that God has blessed my fellowship this week, as the time spent has just been so awesome. To all of those who have shared those times with me this week, I really thank you for your sharing, and for trusting me enough to share. I pray God will continue to grant us many times like this. :)

P/S : It was just brought to my attention that my comment posting function on my blog was busted. It's been fixed but the comment posting has been reverted to the standard blogger format. Thanks to Heidi to pointing this out..And here I was wondering why there were no more comments on my blog :P

Thank You

Craving : Pork Satay

A sort of revelation hit me the other day. Well it didn't actually hit me. It was more like it had been knocking at the door of my brain for so long, but I just was ignoring it. As some of you know, I've been having this on and off infatuation kind of thing going for about 3 years and maybe a little bit more now. I've talked of letting go a few times before I think, but I've always harboured a little hope that maybe someday....*sigh* That just sucks, trust me I know.

Then at the turn of the new year a friend asked me a simple question. "So masih ada feeling ke?" I being the evasive one, just brushed it of and did the standard "Don't know", shrug shoulders kind of answer. Thing is this, when I actually thought about it over the next couple of weeks I came to a realization and was able to admit to myself that really there wasn't any feelings there anymore. I was just clinging on to hope for the sake of hope. You know that clinging on just because if I let go then there was nothing for me to hope for anymore, because "I'd be more alone then I am now". Thank God, He sent my friend those simple words to wake me up.

That truly allowed me, to for the first time in a long time, take that step forward. So to that friend, I hope you know who you are...Thank you.

PS: I got lazy of labels. So not including them anymore.

Housebreaker

Craving : Caviar and Crackers

Arrrrgghhhh...this is so demoralizing.....I don't know if I've mentioned it but some members of the fairer sex seem to believe I am good boyfriend material. Now normally this would be a good thing. Unfortunately for me, it seems that the only ones who have this opinion of me are already attached!!!! Sigh....Just earlier today a female friend of mine expressed that same opinion..and guess what? That's right! Bingo! She's attached too. Not that I harbour any romantic inclinations towards her or anything like that is just that, this kind of situation happens quite often. I think I definately must be doing something wrong. It's either that or maybe I got to stop doing so much damage control work....yeah right..as if that's gonna happen.

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Craving : Midwestern Chilli

My eyes have seen the day,
My heart now knows the way,
But it all seems such a shame,
That I feel so alone in this game.

Around I look and see,
Many people who walk beside me,
Too bad it seems that lines are drawn,
With me just beyond.

And there are times down this path,
Where weariness pours over me like a bath,
And when I turn for a shoulder to lean on,
It always seems I cannot find even one.

I have that strong hand from above,
And that always open ear I serve,
So sometimes I wallow in solitude,
Though I know it's probably just the attittude.

Tell me why is this so,
Through many barriers are still no go,
No where to turn or hide,
To none is the quality of my walk tied.

Spoken words from my bowed head,
Is a hopefull parade,
Of change in time and space,
Of the way I run this race.

Happy 2007

Craving : Turkey stuffing with gravy

Oh man...another year has passed. Can you believe it? Happy New 2007 everybody!! Looking back at last year, I have to say they have been plenty of ups and downs, but I've truly been blessed by God in many ways. Looking back at my blog, I see I seem to have lost part of the "realness", maybe because I made that fatal mistake on day one of actually using my real name on the blog. Not very easy to blog about what one actually feels and thinks and all that when everyone knows who you are. Still I hope to remedy this in the new year, to start blogging more frequently once more and to be more me on my blog once again. Well that's it for now...so Happy New Year once again!