Ooops! Silly ol' me...

Craving : Frogs legs

Eeeek! It's 9:40 in the morning and it is pretty clear that I'm not all that awake yet. Why? Well it is because I'm am still dang blur! I recieved this email this morning from http://www.acrushonu.com. Now..it is not the first time I've gotten this mail, and I knew how it works, but curiousity got the better of me and I decided to try and guess anyway. So what happens is an email comes in and tells you someone has a crush on you and it invites you to try and guess by keying in the email address of said person. What it doesn't tell you is that every guess you make actually sends an email out to that person telling the person that "someone has a crush on them". So the cycle continues. Having done this before, you would think I would be wiser. Well, first I tried to test out if it actually sent out emails by using my gmail account. Checking my gmail, I found that there was no email! I even waited a few minutes. So then..with no mail in sight I decided it was safe to try by typing in emails and guessing. After about 30 or so email addresses, I decided to check my gmail again. I opened it up and still no email. Phew....but then it hit me...it could have been spam!!!! Oh no! And there it was..sitting in my spam folder. So I the website had just sent 30-odd emails to girls I know, informing them that someone has a crush on them, and if any of them is as blur as myself and starts guessing....well you can see the consequences yourselves. Well it gives a good laugh I supposed...and to all those girls who got mails...errr...don't get curious..I'll give you the answer..it was from me...hahaha.

Revelation

Craving : Beef tongue sandwiches

Given the stuff I have been doing over the few days, or even weeks I would have expected myself to be thinking about BGR quite abit. But the truth of the matter is that while I do think about it abit, actually alot at certain periods, I find that I have sort of settled in a sort of stable state where I have become a bit indifferent to it all. Maybe I have been fooling myself in to thinking I like certain people when there isn't anything there. Well at least I don't think so. Anyway..right now I am back in that state of a couple years back, where I wasn't looking nor did I want to look. A lot of the wait and see philosophy...and I guess with everything that has been going on...it is probably for the best.

Week's end

Craving : Preassure Cooked Rabbit

Whoa just look at how time flies. The weekend has come again and the week just seemed to fly by. Been actually quite a hectic week for me....had quite a bit of stuff to do at work and quite a bit to deal with in my personal life as well. But then again ..if you are a regular reader of my blogs, you will know that this is the norm. Work is picking up because strangely enough, we have quite a few things to prepare for the end of the month even with the iFOS project training being moved to a later date. Which is really dang ridiculous because the reason the date was moved was because the director wants to attend the training and he is booked full for the month. Interestingly enough, the director doesn't actually need to be at the training and will most probably show his face there only for the first night. To top it off, with him attending there is a possibility that he will actually take part in the training, which just means we need to make sure everything runs nice and smooth. Which means more work for me..which really sucks...especially with Teenstreet and the youth camp coming up.

Last night I managed to find sometime to finally hang out with my disciples, Bryan and Zen. I feel pretty bad that I haven't really been spending all that much time with them. Feel like I'm neglecting them. Doesn't help to hear about all that they have been going through in their lives and not really being able to help them. Just how am I supposed to disciple someone if I don't spend time with them. Hopefully that will change over the next few weeks. Found out that my job in trying to disciple them just got harder too. Turns out one of the moms doesn't have a very good impression of me. It seems to stem from this one night where the son was out with me and some friends at a cafe, and he got home really late...like in the wee hours of the morning. Thing is I actually left earlier, because I had to call a friend.....but I guess that is just making excuses....probably shouldn't have taken him home with me. Thank God, He is a loving God who is compasionate enough to forgive my mistakes...if not I guess I'd have been fried to a crisp by now. But that all being said..lots left to mend in these relationships...and I guess that's where the glory of God has got to shine through out lives.

One to more stuff...well I wasn't very sure if I'd blog about this when I started...but because SOME smart person brought it up (I wonder who arrr.....), no my mind is thinking about it. What else could it be? BGR of course..seems sad doesn't it that day in day out I seem to be plagued by this...well actually I think I'm just been over dramatic..I'm usually pretty ok most of the time..but there are those one or two days when I just don't feel like doing anything or seeing anybody, and just need to be with myself and God to sort it out. I don't know what to write or where to start actually...all I know is that I'm still sorting through my feelings. Problem is...when you like someone, you always want to spend time with that special someone, or to hear their voice, or just to see them smile. And then added into this mix, is that all that contact may not be all that great for certain reasons....hence lots of restraint has to be used. Thank goodness there are still ppl I can confide once in awhile...even if they are sometimes too 8 for my good...hahahaha.

Poetry

Craving : Beef Wellington (Only ever had this once....and I miss it..:'( )

Lunch time is about coming up here in my office and I'm taking a slightly earlier break from work. Feel alot better today from last night. Had talks with two people last night and each helped in their own way. Incidentally they both have the same initials so I guess they can figure out themselves who the other person was...hahaha..seriously though..Thanks so much for listening and for your time..love u both..:)...(And to those scandal searching ppl out there...don't think SERONG!)

A little know fact about myself...at least I think it is a little known fact...is that I like poetry. I'm actually a traditionalist when it comes to poetry where I feel that there must be rhymes in a poem....a poem without rhymes...just aint a poem to me..:P I haven't written any poetry in quite awhile...but for some reason I just feel like writing one now.....

At the starting line,
There was only you,
But reaching the finish line,
You bring us along too.

Family and friends,
Of which I can find no better,
Even if to the earth's ends,
Were I to search to the letter.

Taken for granted,
At times I feel,
Even when,
The anger I show is real.

Many things,
I tend to let slide,
Many things,
I forgive inside.

I'm thankful,
For those who care,
So thankful,
For those who have been there.

I know my life,
Has been much smoother far,
Then many of those I know,
Both near and far.

Reminded I was,
Of God's grace,
Of how He uses us,
Each in place,

Doesn't matter,
What we bring,
A heart of faith,
Is the most important thing.

And as He has used those around,
To touch and speak to me,
I too hope and pray,
Used in that same way I will be.

Have you ever...

Craving : Salt-baked crabs

Tonight I have been given lots to think about.....and I don't know where to start or even what to write. Some of it is old stuff, that has passed and I thought had been resolved....some stuff is just plain stupid....and some stuff has got to do with anger. Why anger? Because I think it really sucks that I'm such a nice guy that even when I get angry I'm brushed aside. People assume that I'll get over it by myself....so they don't even try to make ammends. Doesn't help when the people involved don't give a damn about how others feel half the time. It makes me sad you know...some may think...just saying "He'll get over it. Wait awhile and he'll be fine"...is ok, because it is true. When friends don't even make the damn effort to check on if you are still angry or if you are ok. And that is what sucks. Sure I'll be fine, but that doesn't mean you don't ever need to apologize or try to make up. Do you have any idea what it feels like when your friends are able to dismiss your feelings so easily, using that statement as an excuse, being taken for granted. You know...usually I don't care if the people involved read my blogs...but this time I'm actually hoping the person does....because it really really sucks!!!!! Sigh.....Thank God...I have been given the gift of being slow to anger...thank God I haven't really blown in many years....Thank God.